Viva Forever

wow! it's been ages since i last updated my blog..

seems like i almost forgot that i have a blog..

am i being busy? not an excuse..

now,i'm back in malaysia..sitting at home..spending my joyous holiday meet all my relatives friends and old friends..

well,today's post is about my long lost friends when i was in selayang..

thanks so much to FACEBOOK..

who said that facebook is only a disaster?

it has a good part of it too..as long we didn't tied to it too much..

my childhood friends..since kindergarten until standard 6..

my study gang..

gang merayau with bicycle each time after tuition on sunday..

gang beraya together to each others' house with just walking..round from selayang till kg nakhoda..

my gangstarz..we performed nasyid until state level..our favourite song, maulana maulana ya maulana..

we won 2nd place singing patriotic song..standing in the eyes of the world..

my hindustan gang..loved to sing hindustan song in class..

gang handball..we won district level..yay!

gang skip evening class with sports practice as an excuse..

and not to forget..my pengakap gang..we were the most outstanding one..

with cikgu azri as the advisor..we won everything like kawad, camping, best group etc in state level..

we went everywhere..climbed mountains and hills, beaches, even holiday trip..

ahh..what a fun memory to reminisce..

sadly that in the mid of my standard 6 i moved to kedah

i didn't had chance to take UPSR together with them..to finish school together =(

on the last day, all my friends, my classmate came to my house to give their farewell

with the gifts and presents and so on..i was so touched by that

some have change and some still the same now

everyone becomes more mature

really miss all of them and the memories we had together

how so free and innocent we were

hope this friendship will last forever and ever

dedication to: fiza s, fiza g, ayu, nana, syuda, pinas, mas, ain, shida, firdaus, fikri, arif, faqih, muzakkir, fayyadh..etc...

Do you still remember, how we used to be
Feeling together, believe in whatever
My love has said to me
Both of us were dreamers
Young love in the sun
Felt like my Saviour, my spirit I gave you
We'd only just begun

Hasta Manana, Always be mine

Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live Forever, for the moment
Ever searching for the one

Yes I still remember, every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I'd heard
Slipping through your fingers, like the sands of time
Promises made, every memory saved
Has reflections in my mind

Hasta Manana, Always be mine

Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live Forever, for the moment
Ever searching for the one

But we're alone now, was it just a dream
Feelings untold, they will never be sold
And the secret's safe with me

Hasta Manana, Always be mine

Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live Forever, for the moment
Ever searching for the one

Ida Scott Taylor once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.

I Don't Wanna Be

I don't need to be anything other than an income-tax-man's daughter.. 
I don't need to be anything other than an accountant's daughter
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking around rooms wonder what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by impostors everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
I'm the only one who's noticed
I can't be the only one who's learned

Can I have everyone's attention please
if you're not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountains
the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay dust stone
and now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wonder what I gotta to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't wanna be...
I don't wanna be...
I don't wanna be anything...
ANYTHING OTHER THAN ME...
I don't wanna be...
I dont't wanna be...
I don't wanna be ...

adapted from a song by Gavin Degraw, I Don't Wanna Be..

E.E. Cummings once wrote, 'To be nobody-but-yourself, in a world which is doing its best, night and day to make you everybody else... means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight... and never stop fighting.'  (Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill S1 E3)

to a heart:
don't be full with colours of yours until they blind you the shine from others colour =)



Narrated Abu Huraira, Prophet (peace be upon him) said:"Religion is very easy, and whoever overburdens himself in his religion will not be able to continue in that way. So you should not be extremist, but try to be near to perfection and receive the good tidings that you will be rewarded; and gain strength by worshiping in the mornings, the nights." (Al-Bukhari)

Ai Mei

Ai mei rang ren shou jin wei qu
Zhao bu dao xiang ai de zheng ju
He shi gai qian jin he shi gai fang qi
Lian yong bao dou mei you yong qi


Zhi neng pei ni dao zhe li
Bi jing you xie shi bu ke yi
Chao guo le you qing hai bu dao ai qing
Yuan fang jiu yao xia yu de feng jing


Dao di gai bu gai ku qi
Xiang tao duo shi wo hai shi ni
Wo hen bu fu qi
Ye kai shi huai yu
Yan qian de ren shi bu shi tong yi ge zhen shi de ni


Ai mei rang ren bian de tan xin
Zhi dao deng dai shi qu yi yi
Wu nai wo he ni xie bu chu jie ju
Fang yi han de mei li ting zai zhe li

*hope that these ambiguous things will get clear soon..

Allah knows better..

Seminggu Berhari Raya

my first time in my life hari raya without my family beside me..in perantauan..far away from my homecountry..

no more 'Balik Kampung', bakar2 lemang, kemas2 rumah like change new curtain, maen bunga api n the list goes on..

but that will not be the reasons for not celebrate my raya,rite? 

i did went to shopping for raya, made kuih raya, sang raya song etc..

malam raya:

went to malaysian hall..had my iftar for da last day of Ramadhan there..foods sponsored by tauke Lazzat (a well-known malay restaurant at melbourne)..then had takbir raya n at da same time me n my friends celebrating fadh's birthday there..n dat day also my lil bro's birthday..after went back home,called my family in malaysia,wish them Selamat Hari Raya n Happy Birthday to my bro too..called my grandma but didn't have chance to talk to her cause she's at mosque that time, and finally called my maksu at Sabah..then, as you might expect, i was crying that night..feeling homesick n really2 wanna going back home to celebrate raya with family..

1st raya:

wake kinda late..rushing with anith to catch train to flemington for Solat Hari Raya..but once we arrived, it's khutbah at that time..in arabic..of course i don't understand la kan..so we just headed to anith's house (1st destination)..ayra served me with her hand-made rendang, nasi impit n choc chip cookies..yummylicious..then, together with tee,muz,fadh n anith, went to cade square (2nd destination)..they combined with cade way => the cadies..next, to St. Ambrose Hall, MASCA's open house (3rd destination)..lots of people there and only few foods left..made me realize there're so many malaysian in melbourne actually..even we are not with our family,we still have friends that also without their family here to celebrate with..next, to the avenue (4th destination)..had sis lin's nasi dagang..rest for a while then headed to arden (5th destination)..ate something that i never eat before,ketupat sotong..seriously sgt2 sedap smpi my tudung n baju skali mkn..lol~ need to clean it and spray perfume on that spot..then, ayin's house at college square (6th destination)..ayin's rendang mmg superb..dah layak buat menantu..huhu~ and went back to flinders as the final destination (not the scary part,k..not like those final destination movies)

2nd raya:

do nothing at all..stick in front of lappie, watched one tree hill season3 series for the whole day..and at night went to Monash uni for ISMA's open house..

3rd raya:

not really productive day..stick in front of lappie again tried to finish season3 one tree hill for the whole day n night..movie-ing with my housemate in front of lappie again..

4th raya:

waked up late..then,stick in front my lappie..one tree hill time again..had 'raya' ice-cream at il dolce with my housemate n fadh..webcam with my sis..then finally scary movie-ing with my housemate watching My Bloody Valentine..scary giler..for those yg ada heart problem jgn tgk citer ni..yg bisu pn jgn,cause you'll scream your lungs out..trust me..

5th raya:

watching one tree hill season4 already....going out to aldi, need to buy some groceries..supposedly going to vicmark but,emm....vicmark already closed..fadh stay over that night..we went to fed square n skydeck..priceless experience..cause money can't buy you the feeling when melbourne city just under your feet..but then,still need money to pay 2 expensive tickets (even with concession) and a nicely taken picture..spent about aud32.25 just for one night..fuh~ enough for once in a lifetime experience..

6th raya:

went to vicmark..buy some vegies, something for my family and finally a red sheep skin fur..yezza..hope my mom will be happy with that..hehe~ then,again stick in front of my lappie watching one tree hill..the only thing that always with me in this boring raya and spring break..that's why they said world at your fingertip..

7th raya:

off to wilson prom for camping..

thanks so much to my lappie for always be with me during these boring days..thanks also to my friends,who also stuck at their own lappie, but still have time to hang out together..thanks to my family for always contacts me so that i'll not feel left alone here..thanks all~

well,watching one tree hill is my addiction now..why not? they have interesting storyline about basketball, music, friends and family values..they have meaningful quotes to make you ponder..they have great actors..and mostly, chad michael murray in it..*winkz*

"Most of our life is a series of images that pass us by like towns on the highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever." (Lucas Scott, OTH S3 E14)

appreciate the moment you have cause you'll never know you'll face this moment again..appreciate everyone that you have..appreciate the foods that you eat..appreciate the air that you breath..just appreciate everything that you have,dexma..

Suratan Atau Kebetulan

Salam and Peace to all~~

Sesuatu yang tak disangka
Seringkali mendatangi kita
Inikah suratan dalam kehidupan
Atau hanya satu kebetulan

Kita asyik membicarakan
Persoalan hidup dan pilihan
Sedang kejujuran semakin berkurang
Masih tiada bertemu jawapan

Walau kita dihadapkan
Dengan berbagai pilihan
Mengapa sering terjadi
Pilihan tak menepati

Hingga amat menakutkan
Menghadapi masa depan
Seolah telah terhapus
Sebuah kehidupan yang kudus

Pertemuan sekali ini
Bagi diriku amat bererti
Tetapi kubimbang untuk menyatakan
Bimbangkan berulang kesilapan

we faces many options everyday..
to do that or not..
to say that or not..
to behave like that or not..
no matter what the choices that we made, don't ever turning back..
just keep moving on..
for if we had choose the good one, appreciate it as not many have got that one
for if it is not, don't feel regret as we might learn something from it
we have to make our own choice

[You have to paddle your own canoe ~American Proverb]

sometimes we are afraid to make a choice
afraid that it will turn out bad
unexpectedly
just remember, we need to be dare to face the challenge
as Allah promises a safe landing, but not a calm passage

GO AHEAD WITHOUT TURNING BACK

don't ever lost the momentum
dare to fail by being dare to try
for each path that we turn,

"Turn towards Allah, O believers, every one of you, so that you may be successful" [24;31]

may He blesses us herein and hereafter..insya Allah

p/s~right now i just wanna choose to be ignorant

For A Sister

farewell party last night at bouverie prayer room after terawih special for you..
simple yet meaningful event to appreciate you as a part of our big family here..

when i received a message from sis fatimah, told me bout the party, it's already late..
me,muz,tee n abid was at monash uni at that time for Malaysian Leadership Forum: A Road To Unity organized by MASCA..
so, we didn't prepare any to give to you..
we decided to buy something after iftar at Monash Uni on our way to the Pelham Musolla for terawih..
cause it's already late (about6.30pm), most of shops around the city already closed..
we just bought a box of chocolate n a card for you..
sorry,for the simple present but i hope that you'll like that..

congrats for already graduated from Melbourne Uni in Electrical Engineering major after 4 n half years hardwork..
4 years seem long but now it ends just like a blink of eyes, you said..
well sis, it's easy to graduate but it isn't to graduate with flying colour result like you..
4 years you've been here..
but we'd know each other for less than a year, since last feb..
still dunno much about you..

my 1st impression towards you..
"she's friendly n sempoi"
you're funny, talented, kind, nampak ganas tapi sebenarnya lembut..hehe~
in my last speech to you last night, i'd say that you're special..
indeed you're..
n nobody will replace you..

during winter trip, me n muz said to sis ainun how sad we are when you leave soon..
sis ainun said "find her clone then"..
we said, "it won't be same..there's no one like her, have personality like her, voice like her.."
n i told this to sis fatimah..
she said,"jgn ckp depan die tau,nnt die overreacted, 'ter'over-happy lak t..haha.."
but, i did tell you last night rite?
cuz i want to make you delighted for our last moment together..

wanna say sorry to you
for all my misdoings before
for all the jokes that you couldn't take..
for everything ..
and my thankie-winky
for all the good deeds towards me n my friends
for being a good sister
for make us happy with your easy-going attitude
for still remember your promise to us, to make us mee bandung
it's so delicious..your cakes, 'paddle pop' cakes, all are marvellous
thanks so much..(next time buat lagi yer =P)..

hope you'll be happy always in Allah's love
ukhwah fillah abadan abada
gonna miss you n please, dun ever ever forget us especially me..haha~
take care~

"...He it is who has supported you with His help and with the believers. And he has united their (believers) hearts. If you had spent all that is in the earth, you could not have united their hearts, but Allah has united them. Certainly He is All-Mighty, All- Wise.." [8:62-63]

dedication to a sister:

Siti Nabihah a.k.a Sis Abby

*hope that she reads this..

Haengbok

That is a Korean word for happiness...
Japanese: shiawase
Mandarin: gao xing
Malay: kegembiraan

as mentioned by Dr Rachael Jack from Glasgow University
a happy emoticon for the Western :-)
while for the East Asian (^_^)
she said that East Asian tended to focus on the eyes as contrast to the Western that took in the whole face when interpreting emotion expression

What does happiness means to you?
The question that Pn Haz asked in my class for the ielts speaking part when I was in Intec
everyone gave their own answer
like get enough sleep, get good result, no assignment or homework, when receive a warm smile, etc...
Happiness seems like can be attained by getting what we want

however, what does happiness truly means?
The great feeling that will last long...Eternally
not just for the short period of time...
not like you're happy when u get the thing that u really want n when that thing gone, you feel bad of it..

Sis zabrina, a famous inspirational book's author, Life Is an Open Secret, did share a story about an 80-year-old grandmother who tried hard to achieve her dream of memorizing the whole Quran...
when a question asked the old woman during a period of memorization, did her life change?
She said she went through a major change and tried always, all praise is due to Allah, to obey Allah before started the memorization. However, after she started the task of memorization, she began to feel a self-comfort, a great self-comfort and all worries began to move away. She even reached the stage of freeing herself from all these excessive worries concerning fearing for her children and their affairs, and her morale was boosted."
Source: sis zabrina's blog
Copyright © Sis Zabrina 2009
see...the true happiness she feels and this is a great Nikmat from Allah...Indeed...
didn't Allah had saying in a verse of Al-Quran: "dengan mengingati Allah,hati akan menjadi tenang"
try this n trust me, you'll get the great feelings that nobody could describe it..=) Insya Allah

happiness is not hard to achieve at all...
Nevertheless, the way you get that matter...
You could be happy by insulting others or doing rebel things as you might think
but then, for how long?
Life is full of karma, you did bad things to others and they might do the same thing to you back...
What goes around comes around...
A hadith of Rasulullah s.a.w saying;
"Daripada Ali r.a. katanya: Sesungguhnya antara perkara yang boleh mengampunkan dosa-dosa ialah memberi kegembiraan kepada saudara seislam kamu."
then, you could be happy too by making others happy =)

I think, we should mingle freely with other people
no matter how introvert or extrovert you're
u could be happy by making others happy or just looking at others happy faces
because I do believe that the thought alone might killing u..
When you're alone, the negative thoughts might conquer your emotion
n then, you will be unhappy...

yes, I’m happy right now
in this month full of barakah
wanna wish, Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak
to all my family (ayah,umi,kakak n fidud), my relatives, my friends n whoever knew me..
Use it wisely or u may regret it...

Rahmat Ujian

Dalam derita ada bahagia
Dalam gembira mungkin terselit duka
Tak siapa tahu
Tak siapa pinta ujian bertamu

Bibir mudah mengucap sabar
Tapi hatilah yang remuk menderita
Insan memandang
Mempunyai berbagai tafsiran

Segala takdir
Terimalah dengan hati yang terbuka
Walau terseksa ada hikmahnya

Harus ada rasa bersyukur
Di setiap kali ujian menjelma
Itu jelasnya membuktikan
Allah mengasihimu setiap masa
Diuji tahap keimanan
Sedangkan ramai terbiar dilalaikan
Hanya yang terpilih sahaja
Antara berjuta mendapat rahmatNya

Allah rindu mendengarkan
Rintihanmu berpanjangan
Bersyukurlah dan tabahlah menghadapi

Harus ada rasa bersyukur
Di setiap kali ujian menjelma
Itu jelasnya membuktikan
Allah mengasihimu setiap masa
Diuji tahap keimanan
Sedangkan ramai terbiar dilalaikan
Hanya yang terpilih sahaja
Antara berjuta mendapat rahmatNya

Segala takdir
Terimalah dengan hati yang terbuka
Walau terseksa ada hikmahnya

Harus ada rasa bersyukur
Di setiap kali ujian menjelma
Itu jelasnya membuktikan
Allah mengasihimu setiap masa
Diuji tahap keimanan
Sedangkan ramai terbiar dilalaikan
Hanya yang terpilih sahaja
Antara berjuta mendapat rahmatNya

Allah rindu mendengarkan
Rintihanmu berpanjangan
Bersyukurlah dan tabahlah menghadapi
Segala ujian diberi
Maka bersyukurlah selalu

first time i have this feeling..feeling of deprivation..in need for something so much..that thing to support my life here monthly..i'm broke..how can i study with this bloody feeling? so miserable =(

sabar..it's what others told me..easy to said..well,maybe i should be patient..now is the time to practice it..oops,no maybe..it's a MUST!..still remember sis jaa's anology about sabar:
"sabar is like a biting nail competition..2 people bite each other's nail..bite as hard as they could..then,whoever give up first is the loser..the one who stand still is the winner..so,as long as you sabar with it,you win"
get the point there?

who's the one that giving me rezeki? is it my sponsor or The Rabb Al-Alamin? Astaghfirullah..
"Man does not get tired of asking good things from Allah; if an evil touches him, then he gives up all hope and is lost in despair" [41;49]
we tend to judge Allah based NOT on the millions of things He gave, but the one thing that He did not give..
Ya Allah,pray that i'm not among the people who give little thanks to You..

"Do people think that they will be left alone because they say:'we believe' and will not be tested"[29;2]
Allah give test to the people that He love (already mentioned before in the previous post)..kalau ada apa2 yang datang,jangan takut,jangan lari,itu semua cobaannn *ayat bujang lapok* hehe~..

to myself:relax ok..it's just a simple problem..don't be grieved for the simple test..belum lagi bagi test besar2..rezeki Allah ada kat mana2..insya Allah..then,be grateful always~

hear this song does make me strong each time when i was down..how could i forget millions nikmat that Allah gives n grieving for one little nikmat gone? Syukur ya Allah to make me realize this =)

Sepanjang Perjalanan

what a splendid holiday..seyesly..every moment of it was fantastic..this is the best holiday that i ever had..spent time with my friends,enjoying n relaxing but at the same time it remind me more n more to Allah..

first,got visited by friends from nz(wanie aka misae) n tassy(fana,farah,fiza n zida)..muz as the tourist guide n me myself as the assistant..we do brought them to many interesting places around melbourne..not just shopping since most of us tgh kering..not really kering but saving money for something else..still can have fun cuz money can't buy u happiness..it's whom beside u to do the happy things together..agree??

then,me n muz went to winter gathering at portsea camp..melbourne city people combined with clayton,brisbane,canberra n few from nz..one part of it is a slot with Dr Zaki,a specialist in Adelaide..he mentioned that how important actually to create an individual muslim..don't just look to other people..look to our ownself, r we a true muslim or not..start from an individual,then a family,then community n finally a muslim country..a way that already practiced by Rasulullah s.a.w..

after gathering,me n muz were off to sydney n canberra for winter trip..it's not a simple trip..we convoyed 6 vans n a car..from melbourne to sydney which took about 12hrs journey..thanx to the drivers,who need to stay awake while the passenger nicely sleep behind..at sydney,we slept at La Kemba Mosque..first time i saw a mosque in aussie that have a mosque-look..with its kubah,design,gate,etc..

destination at sydney: sydney uni,paddy's market,blue mountain,opera house,darling harbour,royal botanic garden,la perouse beach n malaysian hall..all were great..but i had kind of feeling like in malaysia here..the city just like in kl..crowded with people,mobiles,the busy roads..seyesly~

at canberra: slept at canberra islamic centre(cic)..went to questacon,australia national uni,had bbq at a park(forget its name),parliament house..closing ceremony at cic before rush back to melbourne..bout 8hrs journey..canberra is the capital city of australia..but......very quiet place..as compare to melbourne n sydney..u could even see kangaroos hang out at night at the roadside..seyesly~

a journey beyond horizon..a meaningful trip to me..learned bout patience..work in a team..bout ukhuwah..n many more....i'm grateful..cuz i'm not alone in this trip..to have food when i need..to still have place to sleep..n the most thing,still have eyes to see what Allah had created,to give me a healthy body to go around n seek those things n to have heart to appreciate them..syukur alhamdulillah~

Berjalan di sekeliling alam
Sepanjang perjalanan
Terpukau aku membaca pesan
Kebesaran Illahi

Segalanya telah nampak sempurna
Gunung ladang air angkasa raya
Hanya satu kata yang bisa ku ucap
Maha Suci Allah pencipta alam semesta ini

Berarah pohon di tepi jalan
Sepanjang perjalanan
Sejuknya sampai hinggap di hati
Membuatku bahagia

Segalanya telah nampak sempurna
Gunung ladang air angkasa raya
Hanya satu kata yang bisa ku ucap
Maha Suci Allah pencipta alam semesta ini

"Those who remember Allah (always, and in prayers) standing, sitting, and lying down on their sides, and think deeply about the creation of the heavens and the earth, (saying): 'Our Lord! You have not created (all) this without purpose, glory to You! Give us salvation from the torment of the Fire" [3:191]

*4 important things that determine our success: intelligent quotient(IQ) , emotional quotient(EQ) , spiritual quotient(SQ) & quranic quotient(QQ)..according to dr zaki, seminar mahasiswa malaysia 09

*quote from someone: "it's not the people that make islam great,but it's islam that make the people great"

p/s~there's a lot to share with u guys..but didn't have much time to write down here..since class will start tomorrow..just don't ask bout my result...

Breakout

end of final sem1 xm..meaning, end of sem1..gonna breakout for this winter hols..but still waiting for the result *anxious*

i'm gonna miss the the fun time (assume it was a fun time) i had for the 5months of sem1..students, lecturers,tutors,demonstrators all have diff attitudes..

bio students they'r mostly serious n cool..depend on the lecturer..if the lecturer's boring,so were they..but if the lecturer's like the funny-active-and-chill goeff shaw and the very-into-zoology jenny martin,students became more participate n the copland theater was full..yeah,i'll always had my 'comfort' seat at the backstairs because of no empty seat available..n because of i always came late too..but at least i did come to lecture..for my tutorial,my tutor,lynett,she's good..never miss my tutorial..i could understand more from her..n she helped me a lot..thanks~..i really enjoy the practical..got nice groupmate n demonstrator..anyway,thanks a lot to the one guy beside me (dunno his name la)..he helped me to carry my microscope,gave the answer n also his specimen slide for my prac assessment..he got 5marks for that while i got full mark..but he doesn't know that i got full mark..well,lucky for me n unlucky for him..haha~ sowie~

chem students,what i can say,they'r crazy..lol~..they made a facebook group just because of a ruler..viva la ruler..it's started by an email of a pathetic guy who asked for the person who borrowed his ruler during chem lab to return back to him..that was sent to all 1st year chem students..then,everyone keep on replying the spammed email..so funny though..then,the crazier thing during prof griesser's lecture..there's a group of students took off their clothes pieces by pieces each time he mentioned Zumdahl(the chem textbook's writer)..till they're naked..ho~..this is for 18++ ye..well,that's what org xde iman do..cause malu is sebahagian drpd iman..when u didn't have a bit of malu,that's mean u xde iman la..malu yg bertempat,k? not the shy2 cat or whatsoever..u know what the lecturer said? "u guys are so brave!"..

psychology,really made me psych..students mostly are talkative,always had their own good opinion bout the topics n immature..in the lecture hall,the front seats are quite decent students,focused on the lecture but at the backseats are otherwise..they'r chatting,eating,sleeping n do whatever they want..(what the purpose they cuming to the lecture actually?)..i do like the subject,what i can learn from it,how it relate to my life..but the lecture quite bored,the lecturer keep talking n talking unless they show us some funny n interesting vids..the weirdest lecturer that i ever had,dr simon cropper..he just wear shorts,black rock tee,with his earring..like a rocker u know..at the beginning he will put on some rocks music which will make ur lungs out..seyesly..maybe thats his style..but dun forget,he's a doctorate lecturer..

n lastly,i do really love Chinese class..why? it's the only time i could feel relax n njoy..we can laugh at each others mistake n we don't mind at all..cause everyone not so good..jin lao shi is the best..he's so funny,cool n tolerable..plus,ta hen shuai he congming..haha~..for the oral practice,we need to do such a simple acting in partner..the best partner that i ever had,wilson..he's so sempoi la..we did perform well..=D..n there's a perfect couple,ali n abu(is what me n muz gave to them)..they really have good acting skill n good chinese..very enthusiastic..n tamen hen ke'ai..hehe~..

finish all the sem1 wrap up..such a memorable things..now i just keep waiting for the result..hope that i can passed even without flying colour..for me,it's not the result that matter,but the knowledge,the experience that i get..that's really important..whatever it is,just KEEP MOVING FORWARD..the motto from Meet The Robinsons movie..(o.o)v *peace*

*i'm not a robot to just anyone..i'm a robot for only The One..

What Should I Do

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Zen me ban Oh Zen me ban
Wei shen me ni wei shen me
Lao shi ba kong qi quan dou xi guang le
Hai de wo ni hai de wo
Zai ni mian qian hu xi ji cu xu yao jiao jiu hu che
Bie kan wo xian bie kan wo
Wo de lian hong jiu kuai yao bao liao le
Me shen me na you shen me
Wo shi jue dui bu hui cheng ren wo xi huan ni le

Zen me ban gan jue tian you suan
Tou tou ai ni kuai le you gu dan
Zen me ban ai que bu neng jiang
Ni zhen tao yan bu lai bang wo de mang
Ni zen me ke yi zhe yang
Xiao rong da bai tai yang
shen zi bi wo hai yao gen hao kan
wo sui ran wu li di dang
dan shi ri zi hai chang
zong you yi tian huan ni wei wo feng kuang

wei shen me ni wei shen me
zhe yang bu jiang li de jiu chu xian le
hai de wo ni hai de wo
lian jin you de yi dian jin chi you ya quan dou hui le
kao jin wo bie kao jin wo
Dao di li ni duo jin bi jiao hao ne
wan dan le wo wan dan le
wo zheng ge ren yan kan jiu kuai yao bu shi wo de le

zen me ban gan jue tian you suan
tou tou ai ni kuai le you gu dan
zen me ban ai que bu neng jiang
ni zhen tao yan bu lai bang wo de mang

ni zen me ke yi zhe yang
Xiao rong da bai tai yang
shen zi bi wo hai yao gen hao kan
wo sui ran wu li di dang
dan shi ri zi hai chang
zong you yi tian huan ni wei wo feng kuang
wei wo feng kuang

zen me ban gan jue tian you suan
tou tou ai ni kuai le you gu dan
zen me ban ai que bu neng jiang
ni zhen tao yan bu lai bang wo de mang

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p/s~ just finish watching taiwanese movie Bu Neng Shou De Mi Mi a.k.a Secret staring by Jay Chou and Kuan Lun Mei (ok,maybe i'm too late to watch it since it already aired in 2007)..but really dat movie was awesome..though my housemate dun like it..just njoy the story n the music in it..dun ask me the synopsis..zhe shi mimi(it's secret)..*winkz*

If We Hold On Together

Salam n Peace to all~~

Don't lose your way with each passing day.
You've come so far, don't throw it away.
Live believing - dreams are for weaving,
Wonders are waiting to start.
Live your story - Faith, Hope and Glory
Hold to the truth in your heart.

If we hold on together,
I know our dreams will never die.
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by,
For you and I.

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend,
Seek out a star, hold on to the end.
Valley mountain, there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away.
Worlds are swaying - someone is praying,
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together,
I know our dreams will never die.
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by,
For you and I.

When we are out there in the dark,
We'll dream about the sun.
In the dark we'll feel the light,
Warm our hearts, every one.

If we hold on together,
I know our dreams will never die.
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly,
The clouds roll by, for You and I.

my fav line is the bold part..the meaning is like u need to have high self-esteem to prevent urself from being easily manipulate by others..that's why learning process is very important to construct our attitude for a better future..it's not only in the class which just follow the syllabus n experience nothing..but,the learning process throughout our lives for the success herein n hereafter..Insya Allah~

learning n cognition are not an easy process, emphasis on active rather than passive learning..has influence of nature in addition to nurture..learning as defined by Eysenck is the process by which experience results in a relatively permanent change in behavior or in potential behavior..

The basic form of learning: Classical Conditioning
stimuli in the environment can trigger an automatic behavioural response..the new stimulus-response relationship is learned by association with the naturally occuring stimulus-response relationship..i give u an example:
"one day,u accidentally opened my blog..then, u read a touching story in my entry which made u cry while this oldies song played softly in the background..now,whenever u hear the song, u feel sad n almost cry"
unconditioned stimulus(UCS) - the touching story
unconditioned response(UCR) - u'r crying
conditioned stimulus(CS) - the background song
conditioned responses(CR) - feeling sad n almost cry
the conditioning reveals how organisms learn to mentally represent aspects of their world

2nd form of learning: Operant Conditioning
suggested by a behaviourist,BF Skinner explained that we behave the way we do because of the consequences our past behaviour has generated, to gain reward or avoid punishment..reinforcement (+ve & -ve) increase the likelihood of the action being repeated..
ex:u study hard for xm not only to get H1 (+ve), but also to avoid u repeat paper for the next sem (-ve)..
punishment is the use of aversive consequences to reduce undesirable behaviour..however,it only suppresses the behaviour, rarely works for long-term behaviour change..also,it produces -ve feelings which do not promote new learning..alternatives to punishment,reinforce both of desirable behaviour n non-occurrence undesirable behaviour..

3rd form of learning: Observational Learning
indirectly human learning through observing others by active judgment n constructive process,not just mechanical imitation..it also has vicarious reinforcement n vicarious punishment..for example:
"u observing ur friends enjoying blogging experiences vicarious reinforcement for blogging"
however,it needs to undergoes 4 processes according to Albert Bandura=>
1)Attention - must attend to the other persons behaviour
2)Memory - must remember what they did
3)Motor skills - transform the memory into actions
4)Motivation - more likely to imitate a behaviour if will result in a reward

ok,i don't mind if u guys not understand at all what i'm trying to explain..but for me,it's very important..as they'r part of examinable questions for my psychology xm 2moro..need to memorize many things including behavioural neuroscience,sensation&perception,memory,language n quantitative method..one thing dat realize,the more u learn something the more u dunno many things..seeking knowledge is never stop..until the end of ur life..

Rasulullah s.a.w once said that "tuntutlah ilmu walaupun hingga ke liang lahad"

*when u'r WHITE, will u see WHITE in others BLACK?
n when u'r BLACK, will u still see WHITE in others BLACK?
that's a qualia problem....

Tomorrow

change my theme song already..an oldies but just perfect to motivate me..pn haz (my esls lecturer at intec) is the one who promoted this song to all my canberra classmate..type of song that she approved for its meaning and an 'ok-grammar'..next time i tell u guys more bout this song..just take ur time n listen to it...

what is so 'special' about tomorrow?? according to myself,just refer to my student diary..inside that it's written there in the box of 9 june:BIOLOGY EXAM,9.30am,3hrs,REB Nicholson,1856..
majide??

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun!

Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none!

When I'm stuck a day
That's grey,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And Grin,
And Say,
Oh!

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So you gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow! Tomorrow!
I love ya Tomorrow!
You're always
A day
A way!

no need to just memorize the facts but need to understand also..these few things dat i should know bout bio:
1) the presence of remnant of a peptidoglycan wall in some chloroplasts is evidence of prokaryotic endosymbiosis
2) oxygen is the final electron acceptor in the electron transport chain
3) according to Munch's hypothesis, the pressure gradient that drive mass flow involve osmosis
4) the acid-growth hypothesis explains the actions of auxin (indole acetic acid/IAA) hormone
5) motor neurones release acetylcholine from their synaptic terminals
etc.................

just wanna say ALL THE BEST for those who have exam tomorrow or day after tomorrow or day after day after tomorrow or........ah sudahlah..

*when someone gives u BLACK, then u give dat one WHITE, would it be grey??
*or when u give someone WHITE, then dat one gives u BLACK, would it be more grey??

kerepekan dikala otak tgh saturated dan neuron telah membeku..abaikan..

BREAK YOUR LEG!

Unwritten

I am unwritten
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my head
Ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovations

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begin
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines
We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovations

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begin
The rest is still unwritten

Finish all 12 lecture weeks..now is swot vac..study time a.k.a. exam mode
typical emotion >>> STRESS!
many things need to cover in this short period..nyesal dlu xnk revise siap2..skang br nk kalut
supposedly 1 week b4 exam everything inside ur head already..this time for doing exercise,all the past year questions n no more refer to notes..that's what cemerlang student do la..for me,yg bese2 ni je,tme ni la br nk bc notes nk cover balek what had learned..aiseh~

rite now,favorite things:
1.notes
2.stationary
3.calculator
4.chocolate (a must!)

favorite activities:
1.studying
2.eating
3.studying again
4.sleep n sleep

in my mind:
1.biology cell&organism
2.chemistry: organic,inorganic&physical chemistry
3.psychology:mind,brain&behaviour
4.chinese:oral,listening n written

no more study smart but study hard rite now..strive for the H1..need to do all my best..
should not forget to pray to Allah,the Owner of Success..
ihfazillah yahfazka..jagalah Allah, and Allah akan jaga awak=)

then,tawakal..

*explode reu at PD 30-31 may..hope u guys having great time there..miss the good old days at jenan..

p/s~c'yanz n chema..hope u guys nye plan jadik ye..amin~ *winkz*

Perfect Situation

what i learned today..wake up late in the morning,get ready going out with shay..our turn to buy halal chicken at Brunswick..today also my turn to make breakfast but muz already made pancake aka western lempeng for us..(kes bgn lmbt..huhu)..thanks muz~

after came back from Brunswick,had lunch then stick in front my lappie..online n wasting my time..didn't have mood to study cause already planned for going out again with sis mardhiah at 3.15pm..going to humaira's house..a new friend that only met for few times..had makan2 at her home in Broadsmeadow (i think,not sure) about 1hr from Melbourne city..

going there made me realize many things..her house's so far away from melbourne uni,need to take bus or train that would take around 2hrs journey..but she never miss her classes although it start early at 8am..how bout me?? distance from uni n my house take less than 30mins..plus,i just need to take tram that only few meters in front my apartment..n my class start as early as 9am n finish as late as 6pm..no need to take long journey..still,i keep on ponteng class almost every week..like a habit..a bad habit :(

humaira live with her whole family,including her grandma..her aunts n uncles also in Melbourne..seems like all her family migrate here..why?? for better life,education n opportunity they said..she's Singaporean before n now become permanent resident here..so glad to meet her family..feels warm like at home..they're all friendly,kind n nice..ye la kan,met family of muslim n malay among thousands new faces since i arrived here..

her aunt,cik ziela keep on repeating how lucky we're (Malaysian students)..got government sponsorship to study abroad..but they're not..u know urself the reason why..by moving here,at least they meet new community which put less discrimination towards them..they mixed also with other muslims from turki,lebanon,itali,malaysia,indon,etc..the bond that build based on faith not races..what a beautiful islam is..

how lovely family she has..jealous? a lil bit maybe..why should i? see the way they practice Islam..all family perform solah together,even the kids..the aurah that covered,no need to wear telekung..the respect to elders..n the way the kids behave,very decent..again,what a beautiful islam is..

giving such a poignant moment..realize how small i am in this world..realize my weaknesses,how incomplete i am..miss my hommie so much..wanna be with my own family..sob2~

asking myself,what the purpose I'm here? been asked this question before..many times..always come out with my personal answer..to face global challenges,open up my world,get out of comfort zone,bla bla bla..still finding the right n perfect answer..only Allah knows best..

remind back yesterday's qc (quranic circle), what sis baie said,"benda yg putih akan nmpak lg putih bila dikelilingi oleh hitam" agree..supposedly,it should be whiter not be darken by the black..still purifying my heart, shaping my attitude n recharging my iman..a prudent rendition~

tell me theres a logic out there
leading me to better prepare
for the day that something really special might come

Bad Day

Where is the moment when needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on

my dear bad day..n everyone have their own bad day..when things that planned not going well..when finding urself in the middle of confusion,hatred or anger..

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carrying on

then,how we deal with it? pretend that nothing happen or cry for the whole day? it seems like flight or fight..either we runaway or get through with it..relating to the unconditioned n conditioned stimulus..give impact to our unconditioned or conditioned response..

'Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

instead of blaming everyone around, should be asking to our own self,"are we the wrong-doers?" reflecting back the things that are done before..is it because of others or not..

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carrying on

why must care of what others might think..lead all the intentions(nawaitu) because of Allah..He is the one that holds each one's heart..jagalah hubungan dgn Allah n Allah akan jaga hubungan kita dgn yg lain..

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well all that strong
And I'm not wrong

actually,bad day is not always bad..there must be reasons behind either we notice or not..the test that Allah gives to the people that He loves..prevent us from going astray..how grateful is it?

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

should get closer to Him..as He miss so much to hear our prayer,our rintihan..He The One that should be ask for help,tempat utk kita mengadu..

well,dear bad day..i know that i can learn something on that day..something that would make me stronger,as a mujahadah n a fighter..n i know that i'm not alone in this world..there are my circle of trust around..just wanna quote what a wise man said:

"if we want to change our world, we do not begin by rectifying the outward. Instead,we must changed the condition of inward (the heart)." - Hamza Yusuf

True Friend?

it's so hard to trust anyone here

sorry,this post is quite emotional
i'm in unstable emotion now
dun know what to do,how to react n what to say
n i had nobody to share my feeling rite now
so,i'm writing this blog hoping that it could make me at ease

yeah,sometimes i act like childish
n made everyone annoyed
but i need someone to get my back
to break trough my shell whenever i'm quiet
without doing a rebel yell
to keep back my feet on the ground

i need friend that will be here with me till the end
not the one that push me away when something ain't right
but the one that talk to me now n into the night
till it's alright again

a friend that dun get angry when i change the plans
n won't say "i told u" when i'm wrong again

what is true friend means?
the one that will go till the end of the earth
to find the things u need
but i dun need that
i just need friend that hang on with me through the ups n downs
the one that i can believe

it's hard to trust anyone here

when u realize that they just need u for their own good
leave u alone when u're down
but need u when they're down
the backstabbers, hypocrites
pretend they like u but actually they're not
finding the right time to turn u down

do u know that everybody makes mistakes?
n everybody has those days
nobody's perfect
but i gotta work it
again and again until i get it right
nobody's perfect
u live n u learn it
n if i mess it up sometimes...
nobody's perfect

i'm not the one that easily express my feelings
i just let it keep inside
that made me more suffer
yup,all of us are suffered
i know how to live in community
to keep everybody's secret
not involving outsiders
but i need good advice telling me what should i do
not with those harsh words that make things get worse

it's so hard to trust anyone here

the one n only that never leave me alone..
"Your Lord (O Muhammad) has neither forsaken you nor hates you" (93:3)

yes,i'm pissed off..T_T

Tangled Up In Me

You wanna know more, more, more about me..
gotta know reverse psychology..

10 Facts Bout Me-tagged by miss chika chocobo :)

1. i'm a sleeping beauty..that's what my teachers n friends titled me..cause i always sleep in class, back in high school n intec life..now, i still sleep in lectures..hehe~
2. the way i eat is very slow..just ask those peeps who ate with me..but,there are one person who is slower than me, miss chika..haha~
3. i'm a cheerful girl and always be optimistic..so, i tend to let everything easy n simple..no need to think much..more like my father..miss him lor~
   
4. i do not love blue but blue love me..meaning, blue always choose me..each time i wanna buy something, the blue things always begging me to pick them :P
   
5. sometimes i can be mature and sometimes i can become childish..depend on my mood..
6. i have intriguing personality; far from sweet n proper..
7. i'm a music lover..i can't live without music..i listen to malay, english, mandarin, japanese, korean n even bollywood songs..yeah~
   
8. i'm a rule-breaker..didn't like to follow any nonsense rules that tied my life..i like to be free n do whatever i like..dun stop me..
9. i hate when i have nothing to say..also when i wanna say something but the words not coming out, that made me stumble..
   
10. i'm not a perfectionist girl..just like to do things perfectly..although it takes too much time but i'm happy as long as it is perfect..

all in all, i dun know much about me..cause what i see in myself is different from what others see in me..still on my learning process to find myself..

hey hey hey
could you see i want you by the way i push you away
don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm acting today
mix the words with the action
do it all for your reaction yeah
hey hey get tangled up in me

u think that u know me? just get tangled up in me..lol~

Mantera Beradu

MANTERA BERADU - MALIQUE FT. M NASIR

Masih belum sempurna..

Gerakkan Hati... Hati gerakkan...
Pandanglah aku.. aku lah dia..

kulitku tebal.. ku kebal.. ingatku kebal..
hanya berbual makan angin kembung perut mual...
resah dan tidak senang.. hidup tak pernah lenang..
ku schizo paranoia takut pecah tembelang

pecah tembelang... peta dah hilang...
bangau dah pulang... suara sumbang..

lidahku kaku tak selicin kuku
teman baikku buku
bini ku pena.. tak pernah lena
aku suka mengintai pantang ditenung
berakhir pertelingkahan dalaman
pasti belum

ikut gerak hati.. pena melayang
dilihat dua layang pandang
tak lah sekarang
takat meradang
tanya.. abang gedang, apa barang?
badan macam badang
main macam belakang parang

kuhunuskan keris musuh ada pistol
tradisi kekalkan adaptasi harus betul
tujuh baris keramat tujuh garis penamat
baik berpada biar jahat asal selamat

ramai saudaraku yang baik telah dipijak

awan mendung yang berarak
bawa tangis bawa resah
rebah rindu yang terkumpul
semua birat dan kalimah
semua janji yang terikat
lebur disisimu

yo ijazah terbaik datangnya dari jalanan
dari pengalaman bercakap dan bersalaman
konflik motivasi cuba medatasi
positif dan benci jadi inspirasi pagi

peduli itu interpretasi basi pekakkan sebelah
halang biar keduanya muka cantik
soalan bodoh yang ditanya jadi melodinya
lebih hina dari zina

lu bikin dosa ku bikin prosa
testosterone testarosa
citacita sosa kl kl kosa nostra
jalan berliku ku harung roller coaster
gah sentosa tiada penyesalan
luas pandangan jauh dah berjalan
tak sempurna masih ada kejanggalan
gagal merancang, merancang kegagalan

awan mendung yang berarak
bawa tangis bawa resah
rebah rindu yang terkumpul
semua birat dan kalimah
semua janji yang terikat
lebur disisimu

kucing bawa tidur rimau bawa igau
masuk tempat orang bawa otak bukan pisau

naik bukit angkuh cakap ayah jangan risau
turun bukit pucat dengar tiga miaww
kucing bawa tidur rimau bawa igau
masuk tempat orang bawa otak bukan pisau

tolak pintu gua tiga kerat tenaga
kosong tak dijaga sampai datang tiga naga
ingat nak berlaga tapi tak kan boleh menang
menang dengan otak tak mesti dengan pedang

sebelum jadi bangkai ikan koi renang renang
pura pura salah jawapan untuk naik berang
panggil lima kawan atau biar pergi laju
risaukan pekara remeh kita tak akan maju
muka sama hijau hati siapa tahu
merah dah menyala pasti mati siapa mahu
gagap tiga kali bercakap benar saja
bulan terang ramai yang keluar buat kerja

panjat pokok buluh cari tukun air terjun
naik sampai nampak dah terpegun turun
tiga ular ikut lompat atau paut
kalau lari mati jika jerut maut

awan mendung yang berarak
bawa tangis bawa resah
rebah rindu yang terkumpul
semua birat dan kalimah
semua janji yang terikat
lebur disisimu

puisi hati mu... hati mu puisi
palu hati ku palu hatiku

kulit tak besalin walau saling ganti baju
pandang sini pandang sini
ku berbahasa baku kata kata nahu
himpun jadi satu
mantera beradu dengan irama dan lagu

akhirnya sempurna....

well, this is one of my favourite song..why? just see the lyric..meaningful rite? even though i don't understand some words..cause i'm not a sastera people..not really into puisi and cerpen..but i like the idea written and made into song..thumbs up~

lets focus at the bold part..said bout the important of ILMU, is what i think la..see, ILMU is very important..u can't win a battle with just ur physical, but also need ur mind..how are we want to build up our civilization? through ILMU..however,we should not forget that all the ILMU is come from Allah..

(31:27) and if all the trees on the earth were pens and the sea (were ink wherewith to write),with seven seas behind it to add to its (supply),yet the Words of Allah would not be exhausted.Verily,Allah is All-Mighty,All-Wise

i wonder why whenever i study seems like a waste..like 'masuk otak kanan keluar otak kiri'..i realize that my nawaitu is wrong,not because of Allah but because of something else..so,how could Allah help in study,to give the ILMU penetrate not just into the brain but the heart also..

to someone who is struggling for the final xm in this coming week,all the best with ur study n do ur best for ur xm..may Allah bestows His Mercy upon you..gambare *smile*

*just check through this blog..he said more about the ILMU..insya Allah

In Between

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

1 week holiday seems too long for me..usually, I'll be back home during the hols..but now I can't..that really makes me in a cloud of homesickness feeling..aah,how wonderful to be at home..miss my mom,dad,sis n fidud so much..miss lying on my bed,my blueiy room..miss spent time gardening with my mom, chatting with my sis for the whole night n fight with fidud..haha~

nway,i still have friends to spent time with..my housemate,my friends that came all the way from clayton,canberra n adelaide..like a small reunion for the ausmat19 batch at intec..had picnic at the fitzoy garden..even guys also came here for the football match n 'jalan2' at melbourne..

not many places we went..just brought them shopping at DFO,vicmark n dockland..i don't know they were shopaholic..they already used $500 for shopping at DFO only..not include at vicmark n dockland..wow~ thank god i'm not like them,a shopaholic or fashion mania..it'll be worse because that DFO just 5 mins walk from my apartment..

brought them to port melbourne,had fish&chip there..stroll along the Crown,watched the 'hellfire' n water fountain that follow with the music tone..subarashi ne~ but i think they just waste so much money to make the Crown a 5 star place just to make people hypnotize..can't compare with the feeling of comfort when i was at The Nobbies n at the beaches..just feel the breeze n watched the beautiful scenery that created by Allah swt..no need to spend any cent for that..

well,having fun with my friends is just not enough for me..i need to be surrounded by people who make me remind more to Allah..cause i'm not really strong..easily influence by others..i need someone to put back my feet on the ground..that's why choosing friends is really important..even Nabi Yusuf AS prayed to God, (12,101)..dan gabungkanlah aku dengan orang yang saleh..

here,friends are like family..the one that share emotional roller coaster, to get me back on track if they see me astray..Ya Allah,guide us to the straight way..thanx to sis fatimah for the such beautiful advice=)..thanx also to sis sarah that always remind us to study n help us along with the assignment *winkz*..

anyway,the hols is finally over n i'll get busy again..with the tests,practicals n assignments..maybe that'll make me forget my homesick feeling..wondering how to spent my 1month winter hols soon..hm~

p/s~ just finish watched a japan drama, HONEY&CLOVER..so nice n meaningful story about the 5 art students who studying in Tokyo Uni n how they struggle to achieve their dreams..admire with ikuta toma(the cute guy who played as nakatsu in hana kimi)..hehe~