Born To Be A Lady

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Salam and peace to all..

Today is my 22nd birthday *clap2*
Glad to be born in december, the end of year where people put their last hope before starting a new year
This is my second time celebrating my birthday in Melbourne with my friends here
But this time, I celebrate it with a big, thankful heart, to Allah especially for giving me these wonderful friends
At first I thought I'm gonna be alone here on my birthday, but I was wrong
Glad to have Tiey and Fadh here, with the unexpected guests (Tiqa & Has)
And the care and thoughts from Muz and the others even they are busying working in the farm
Also the love from my family, umi, ayah, kakak n pidut (Can't wait to have them here)

For this birthday, I wish a lots, for my future
Wish that I could be matured enough for 22 year old lady
Wish I could achieve my dreams
Wish that I always in a good health condition, no laziness
And also my last hope..

People must always looking for hope,

Through all the past.

Just like becoming a flower bouquet 

From the seeds gathered in your small hands.

Still can not find the answer

Maybe I know, you know, born to be a lady

The fragrant flowers

The bird singing

The wind shining

The moon turning round and round

Send my love to you like this

Is because I am waiting for the day that you fall in love with me

When you can’t see what is truly important

Even when you can’t feel it either.

But because of this

No matter how large and how heavy is it, I can go along briskly

Even if the night is silence

Promise I'm here, you hear?

Born to be part of the world

The flower is wither

The wing broke and fell down

The wind come

The dark night back again

Little by little, you become strong

All you do is for a person who you want to protect 

The hope is Love

Even I am only a weak and tiny girl

And I don't know when can I become strong

Although my small dream can't come true immediately

But I know that day will finally come

Oh you're a lady

- Born to be a Lady by Girls' Generation

Put Your Records On

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious Most Merciful

Salam and peace to all..

A piece of advice as an intro

Now summer is here. I don't know I should be happy or not, cause I'm not actually into the summer. The reason is, days are longer than nights. This means that Subuh finish early and Isya' start late. Another reason is, people wearing less and you'll see more skins (thank God I'm a girl). I personally feel that summer's style not really eye-chatching at all as compare to autumn's, winter's, or even spring's. What do you expect in the summer, people wearing sleeveless shirts, shorts/hot pants/mini skirt, flip-flop/sandal. And maybe plus other accessories like hat and shades. Nothing really special.

I shouldn't complain about summer, I have to go through this seasons eventually. Not like I can escape it anytime, it's sunnatullah, hukum kejadian alam. I can't change it. Well, maybe this would be my last summer and my last season in Melbourne. Who knows..

I've been contemplating lots of things in my mind recently. Thinking bout my past, my present, and my future. I guess I've upgraded myself a bit although there are times myself not fully function (what Italian call dolce far niente). There are times I deactivate and reactivate myself, then emptying all the various junk files inside myself.  Haha.. It's all the process of learning and upgrading actually.

My present and my past does not change significantly (don't ask about physically changes, I know I 'gain' a little bit). I don't care really much bout my past, cause it's already gone. Now I'm worrying bout my future. Afraid that my dreams didn't actually come true. If my Plan A doesn't work out, I need to have Plan B, C, etc.. But, I don't think I have any other talent as my backup. I don't have anything that I can confidently say, "I'm really good at this, this, this" even though I've already put an effort.

People said, talent comes with interest. My interest, since I was a kid until now is MUSIC. Too bad that I don't have any basic knowledge about music and what's more, I'm a tone-deaf! I really wanna master in playing musical instrument especially piano and guitar.

My wish list  #4: To have that mini guitar

I believe my time will come soon. The time that I'll be shining and flying. Patience, hard work, passion, and fortitude; thats the words. But for now, I just wanna put my records on and enjoy the moment.

Three little birds, sat on my window.

And they told me I don't need to worry.

Summer came like cinnamon, So sweet.

Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright

The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same

Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song

You go ahead, let your hair down

Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,

Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,

Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside (just relax, just relax)

Don't you let those other boys fool you,

Got to love that afro hair do.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright

The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.

Don't you think it's strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song

You go ahead, let your hair down

Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,

Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake

Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger

When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer?

Do what you want to.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song

You go ahead, let your hair down

Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,

Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song

You go ahead, let your hair down

Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,

Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Oh, you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

- Put Your Records On by Corrine Bailey Rae

p/s ~ one of the fearful thing is the person you trust most stab you in the back.

The Show

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious Most Merciful

Salam and peace to all..

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go 

I can't do it alone I've tried

And I don't know why

I was in despair, when I lost my best-gadget-buddy. It was really an unexpected separation. I was in denial at first, thinking that I may have found it somewhere later, not really panic, but staying cool instead. How it lost? I have no idea. Either I dropped it off somewhere at Ballarat or someone pick-pocketed me. Allah knows best.

Slow it down

Make it stop--

Or else my heart is going to pop

'Cause it's too much

Yeah, it's a lot

To be something I'm not

That buddy had been served for me for more than a year. Nothing special about it, just have a lot of functions that useful to me. I use it for communication, for entertainment, for data record, as a diary, remind me about prayer times, reading novels, etc. All in all, I depend so much on it. Depend on it too much..

I'm a fool

Out of love

'Cause I just can't get enough

I don't regret of losing that buddy, I just missing it sometimes. Whenever I want to snap picture, look for qibla direction, look for prayer time, and mostly when before go to sleep and wake up in the morning. Those times make me realise, ah.. it's not here anymore..

I am just a little girl lost in the moment

I'm so scared but I don't show it

I can't figure it out

It's bringing me down I know

I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show 

Everyone says to me there's always a reason for this. Ada hikmah la tu.. Yup, I accept it. That's how I comfort myself, not being too carried away. I know, I've been quite materialistic before, now I get the lesson. Nothing last forever.

The sun is hot

In the sky

Just like a giant spotlight

The people follow the signs

And synchronise in time

It's a joke

Nobody knows

They've got a ticket to that show

I was in despair, and later then I found this hadith:

"Abu Huraira reported Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) as saying: Allah is more pleased with the repentance of His servant when he turns penitently towards Him than one of you would be on finding the lost camel." [Muslim Book 27 No 6611]

Masha Allah, I realise then, when you please Allah, then Allah is pleased with you. Allah's blessings are countless, not just that buddy only, there are lots that I should be grateful with. 

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back

I want my money back

I want my money back

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back

I want my money back

I want my money back

Just enjoy the show

- The Show by Lenka

To that buddy, thanks so much for being my reliable PA, stay by my side for 1 year and 4 months. And to its new owner, please take a good care of it.

Shut Up

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious Most Merciful

Salam and Peace to all..

Have you ever encounter the feeling that you thought you really know someone, but it end up you only know a lil bit of that person?

Well, that is so true..

I guess nobody really knows other person inside out..

I mean REALLY..

Even a mother towards her child..

Or even between a long married couple..

Or even between the two BFF..

Our knowledge bout a person, for me, just like a piece of jigsaw puzzle..

One can has a piece, or two or more..

But neither has a complete pieces to get a clear picture of who a person is..

I mean NOBODY..

Because I believe that only Allah knows the person the best, inside and out..

Only He has the right to judge the person..

Because He creates us..

"And with Him are the keys of the Ghaib (all that is hidden), none knows them but He. And He knows whatever there is in the land and in the sea; not a leaf falls, but He knows it. There is not a grain in the darkness of the earth nor anything fresh or dry, but is written in a Clear Record" [Al-An'am 6:59]

Thus, who are we to put our judge on other? *knock myself -toink-*

Are we the creator? Do we TOTALLY know that person?

The answer is for surely NO..

Our judgement will not be reliable since we only know just a piece of information..

Well, I might say scientifically is proven..

Cause science is full of assumptions..

But this is not a scientifically matter, this is a real life, psychologically, we talk about human behaviour..

(ok, I'm talking a bit nonsense now)

Why do we judge others, or being prejudice towards others?

Because we saw others imperfection

Then we think we are perfect/much better 

Even actually we are not.. *knock myself again -toink-*

Doesn't this relates to the feeling of arrogant (takabbur) *nauzubillah minzalik*

I don't want to give example situation..

There's a lot of this happen everyday in our life, either we realise or not..

Just think for a moment, how many times in a day we praise instead of criticising others?

Just keep the answer for yourself..

One way to avoid being judgmental is, think positive towards other person..

Lets say the person did one annoying thing,

Instead of give criticism, give the person 100, no, 1000 reasons for why did the person did it..

Among the 1000 reasons, there would be a possibility for a positive one, right? (even just 1)

Then just keep the positive one, and discard the rest 999 negative reasons..

It's not easy, but lets just try it..

Or, why not just ask, in a decent way, like being concern, not being skeptical..

The person may be pleased to tell you the reason..

Probably this might change they way you think bout the person, who knows

Narrated Abu Huraira (Radi-Allahu 'anhu): The Prophet (Sallallahu 'Alaihi Wa Sallam) said, "Beware of suspicion (about others), as suspicion is the falsest talk, and do not spy upon each other, and do not listen to the evil talk of the people about others' affairs, and do not have enmity with one another, but be brothers. And none should ask for the hand of a girl who is already engaged to his Muslim brother, but one should wait till the first suitor marries her or leaves her." [Bukhari]

In a nutshell, DEXMA, don't assume others (like Pn Haz said: ass-u-me =P)

Don't be judgmental on others (but you can if you did lab experiment)

Don't be prejudice and skeptical

Don't be arrogant (accept the good criticism, it's totally different than judgement)

And... just shut up instead of saying bad words that might hurt other.. *knock myself hardly -TOK!-*

p/s ~ Un-startled, like a lion at sounds; un-snared, like the wind in a net; un-smeared, like a lotus in water; wander alone, like a rhinoceros

Lord Of Ramadhan

Salam and Peace to all..

Last winter holidays was very meaningful and occupied (not just wasting time ^^)

I went to New Zealand for 2 weeks, touring both the north and south island

The reason I went there is because:

1. This is my final year, so I need to grab a chance (but I do pray I can further study here)
2. I don't have anywhere else to go since everyone mostly went back to Malaysia
3. I love traveling (v)

Okay, there's gonna be a lot of stories regarding my visit to NZ

But I don't want to write them all, saving my time..haha

The only thing I want to point out is the scenery there, so breathtaking even the camera couldn't capture it

Subhanallah, everything that He's created has its own purpose, nobody can deny it.

I went to the Lord of the Ring film site, The Hobbiton.

You know, the movie was mostly filmed at New Zealand, because of its wonderful scenery that depicts the Middle Earth as the director imagined.

That movie, it is very symbolic to what the world's conflict and desire

What the world offers might entice us, but not as tempting as the Paradise

As Allah describe in the Quran:

"For them will be the home of peace (Paradise) with their Lord. And He will be their Wali (Protector and Helper) because of what they used to do" [Al-An'am 6: 127]

just imagine, a perfect house that complete with everything we wanted and needed, with safety and bodyguards, but a lot better than that..

Stop bout the nz and the movie, now I'm gonna talk bout the GUEST

Our house, the Famous Amess received a lot of guests every single day last holiday

Our Adelaide friends stayed at our house for the MCG

Muz friends from Malaysia stayed later then until this morning,

they had to postpone their  flight due to accident happened on the night of 14th July

Alhamdulillah, everyone survived and getting well

The guest should be treated kindly and generously

Like when I was in NZ, the people really treated us heart-warmingly and friendly

However, I apologise for any shortcomings on behalf of myself and the rest of my housemates

Now the Most VVIP Guest is coming and already here

It's Ramadhan, full of rahmat, the month of Quran, the best month ever

I should treat this month like it is my last Ramadhan, fear that I'll never meet it again

Hope that I will maintain the momentum, no, increase the momentum throughout this Ramadhan

Hope my Ramadhan this year will be better than last years..amin~

Ramadhan Kareem everyone!

Narrated Abu Huraira (RA): Allah's Apostle (SAW) said, "Allah said, 'All the deeds of Adam's sons (people) are for them, except fasting which is for Me, and I will give the reward for it.' Fasting is a shield or protection from the fire and from committing sins. If one of you is fasting, he should avoid sexual relation with his wife and quarreling, and if somebody should fight or quarrel with him, he should say, 'I am fasting.' By Him in Whose Hands my soul is' The unpleasant smell coming out from the mouth of a fasting person is better in the sight of Allah than the smell of musk. There are two pleasures for the fasting person, one at the time of breaking his fast, and the other at the time when he will meet his Lord; then he will be pleased because of his fasting." (Sahih Bukhari)

Lets enjoy this song~~
A song which has english, arabic, turkish and german lyrics

Skyline

Salam and peace to all..

I think I think a little too much

In my room where I can’t sleep

I want to just run away from this night

My sighs fall onto the window

I want to fly far away

Away from the moonlight

What should I do?

I want to fly well, I want to fly well

I just don’t know how to fly...

I want to fly well, I want to fly well

I wish someone would teach me

Surely everything’s unfamiliar

Even the TV is full of lies

I keep running for shelter from the rain

I can’t go on like this

I don’t care if I get drenched

I want to fly well I want to fly well

In order to learn to fly...

I want to fly well I want to fly well

You have to get out into the sky, to skyline

I can’t wait for my chance

How many of the same old mornings

Have I counted so far, picturing the skyline

I don’t know how to fly

I don’t even know if I can fly

I want to fly well I want to fly well

But I’ll go

I want to fly well I want to fly well

In order to learn to fly...

I want to fly well I want to fly well

You have to get out into the sky, to skyline

- Yui: Skyline

I found this great song while watching Taiyou No Uta movie (aka Song of the Sun)

This movie is about a girl who suffers XP (xeroderma pigmentosum), an incurable disease that might cause death if expose to the sun

I reflect to myself, how grateful I am, even though I sometimes complaints how sun might burn/darken my skin, I still can enjoy the sunshine for the sake of vitamin D for my body

I can be active during the day, while still enjoying the night

But this girl doesn't

She can't go to school, even going out to play during the day

She slept when sunrise and woke up at sunset

Living a way different life from me

You know, what is the best motivation?

For me is the one given by someone who is in pain but still could give the sweetest smile ever

How could we compare our pain to someone who faced the greatest challenges

But still could give comfort to others?

There's none other than our Prophet Muhammad SAW

He suffered a lot since before his born,

His father died while he was 8 months in his mother womb

Then his mother died

Followed by his grandfather, then his wife Khadijah while he was carrying his duty as a messenger

He bore any attacks, criticism against him

Just for the sake of "Say, He is Allah, the one" [121:1]

He brings rahmat to every mankind, even till now and forever

What a beautiful inspiration, isn't it?

What do I suffer? Nothing much

I guess being aware of others suffering could open our eyes, and make us being grateful for what we have

At the same time teach us to be strong

Just like the lyrics, I really want to fly well

Towards the sky, and I need to learn how to fly, in a right way

I know, I have a lot to learn, long way to go to touch the sky

It takes time, isn't it?

But I wonder, what the sky might offer me

My destiny, still unknown

Still, I can design it to get a good result, herein and hereafter

Allah knows best..

p/s ~ my flight to new zealand tomorrow..hope i'll have a safe journey, not be affected by the Chilean volcanic ash

March 9th

Salam and peace to all~

In the middle of this drifting season
I suddenly feel the length of the days
In the midst of these quickly-passing days
You and I dream away

With my feelings on the March wind
The cherry blossom buds continue on into spring

The overflowing drops of light
One by one warm the morning
Beside you, I'm a little embarrassed
After a huge yawn

I'm standing at the door to a new world
What I've realized is that I'm not alone

If I close my eyes
You're behind my eyelids
How strong has that made me?
I hope I'm the same for you

The dusty whirlwind
Tangled up the laundry, but
The white moon in the morning sky
Was so beautiful, I couldn't look away

There are things that don't go the way I planned
But if I look up to the sky, even they seem small

The blue sky is cold and clear
The fluffy clouds float by quietly
If I can share with you the joy
Of waiting for the flowers to bloom, I'll be happy

From now on, I want you to be quietly smiling beside me

If I close my eyes
You're behind my eyelids
How strong has that made me?
I hope I'm the same for you 

- Song: March 9th

- Artist: Remioromen

This song just reminding me of 1 Litre of Tears drama..

A japanese drama that I watched for almost 10 times already..

Second week of class is quite busy for me..

But at least I still have time to hang out with my friends..

Last week is sort of 'no life' for me..

I just went back and forth to uni and home..

Spent my time alone either in front of laptop or just with my housemate..

Didn't go to city at all, or even celebrate Tiqa Om's birthday..

Those type of things made me feel kinda left out..
I just feel the need to be social instead of being like 'kera sumbang'..

It doesn't wrong to be social at all as long we keep the barrier..jaga ikhtilat org ckp..


Rasulullah s.a.w. said, “Man is influenced by the faith of his friends. Therefore, be careful of whom you associate with.” (Bihar-ul-Anwar, vol.74, p.192)

Alhamdulillah..

The friends I have here is one of His ni'mat..

They're great people and insya Allah a would-be great people one day..

I learn a lot from them..

They made me realise many things about life that I've ever imagine..

They opened my eyes about how world is look like..

Still, Allah knows best..


p/s ~ Happy Birthday to Kim Taeyeon (^^,)