Big Girls Don't Cry

at first..
all i thought my life here is very hard..being on my own feet..doing everything independently for the first time..plus,living far away from family n home..

moreover..
i'm in a non-muslim country where muslims here is the minority..totally different from m'sia..evoking back the first day of uni, wore baju kurung for the first time since my arrival,everyone in my class looked weird at me..isolation is somehow i felt that time..supposedly first day should going well as it's the start for tomorrow..the next days went on with the hard feeling that people maybe don't like you or afraid of you because you're a wierdo or something..

then..
sis fatimah told me that our baju kurungs are loved n envied by many..the Arabs even the mat salleh,they just looooove our baju kurung..should be proud to wear it..n,sis syikin said that people mistaken that baju kurungs as dress..u're soo rich to wear that to class..yup,that's right sis..those are just my pessimistic thoughts when homesick-ness feeling was all over me..

minority..
i came to these words one day:"Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority,it is time to pause and reflect"-Mark Twain
i always been in majority before n sadly,i did not learn many..yeah,you'll never get something if you're in your comfort zone unless you're getting out of it..like katak di bawah tempurung..
even the beloved Prophet SAW said,"Jadilah kamu dikalangan orang yang sedikit.."
so,minority is not an issue here..as long you respect yourself,n everyone will respect you..need to stand tall because we're the best ummah..
sis aisya told me that we're not alone in this world..we're the majority..because all the trees,the skies,the leaves,they're all with us..the living things that zikir to Allah in everytime..proud to be muslim..yeay!

till one day..
i met a girl that change my perception towards life..how she faces this life with smile on her face although she's BLIND..plus,she's a muslim..i met her thrice but never had a chance to talk to her..i do not even know her name,what year she's in or what course she's doing but somehow she inspired me..to pass trough the hurdles of life with smile..*smile*
"i was miserable because i had no shoes until i met a man who had no feet"
compare to her,my life isn't hard at all..but why should i stop smiling when difficulties come? smile is sadaqah..you'll make people at ease when you smile n that will make u happy..girl,keep on smiling!

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

p/s~looking forward for next week...easter hols~~~ n my friends from canberra n clayton will come sleepover here..best best~~